juz now went lilin's blog see see...
den saw she so sweet lorh...
type so many things...
but den...
reli wish her can happy together...
although abit envy+jealous~!

haha...
but no other meaning...
juz envy dat she can be so sweet...
when can i be as sweet as her??
maybe in a million year's time bah...
haiz...

reading thru her blog...
realize dat...
long time nvr relax le...
always put on a brave front...
but deep inside...
i m not brave at all...

anyway...
maybe i m not for sweetness bah...
another failure oni proves dat i m a failure...
haven start den fail...
isn't that amusing??
i did my best...
i cant change de result...
reli helpless...

de referee gave me a red card even before the match started...
so wad can i do??
other than accpet the red card~?

de red card dat u give me..
will not disspear...

instead...
it will stay dere forever...
even if u forget it...
i wun forget it...

my failure is unable to understand u more...
unable to open ur heart...

so...
i m giving up...

duno wad m i giving up anyway...
maybe de love to u?
maybe de longing to u??
i duno...
reli duno...

my heart is empty now...
coz it was full of u...
since i decided to give up...
my heart is empty...
nth inside le...

since u duno my heart...
u will never noe ever again...
u can b juz urself...
n let me not be myself...

1 ppl suffer better than 2...
i dun wan make u suffer...
coz it's the last thing i ever wan to do...
i juz wan to look at u from far..
n look at ur smile...

dat is enuf~

i can ask for nth more...
i shud feel satisfied...
coz it's predestined dat our relationship shud b like dis...

u r always surrounded wif gals...
hope dat 1 of ur Miss Right is among them...
coz i will never b the one..
hope u will be happy...

dat is all dat i hope...

it doesn't matter whether i suffer onot...
really..
juz u nid to be happy...
den my suffering is worthy...