It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause I have to pretend that I don't really care
I thought you were my merrytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star is coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smile
You make me feel
That I could sing slong
But then you whimped and change the word
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used to bes and once upon a song
Now I know you're not a merrytale
And dreams are meant for sleeping
A wish upon a star just don't come true
Cause now that even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I like the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that I can be so blind


dat was the lyrics of the song "When there was me and you"..
dat quite reflects my feeling now lorh...
it juz felt like a merrytale...
a dream when i'm not sleeping...
a wish upon a star dat is coming true...
but..i juz confused my feelings with the truth...
so...now i m clear-minded again...
n realized that reality...i dun reli feel happy..
it feel sort of lost...like something is missing...
my heart is not complete anymore...
but..wad else can i do?dat is his choice wad...
either girlfriend or nothing...
wad can i choose?can't possibly ask me choose girlfriend...
coz my feeling towards him is not love...
so..juz let it be bah..i enjoyed his company..as a fren...

boyboy n girlgirl can't be pure fren meh??
see me n boyboy(sam)...so good...always bickering...
but we r stil frenz arh...
see me n pow..always argue de..but den stil frenz..
haiz..duno wad is in his brain...perhaps full of shit lorh...
juz ignore that can liao...i dun wan change myself juz bcoz of him...
i m stil dat talkative n cheerful evelyn~^^

today had fever n stomachache...
den was spending my time in paper 5 class to copy MS answer...
bad girl girl lorh..>,<
no choice..no mood to listen to teacher anyway...
den pow was in de class next to mine...
but we still sms-ed...was kind of lame...>,<
anyway...after lunch break..is MS class..
de stupid idiotic teacher stil the same...
always say want to deduct our marks...
as if we r 3-years-old kids...
so easily to be threathened de arh??DREAM ON!!!
den i juz ignored her...go to the back row n chit chat with yuen ling n yuan wen dey all...
juz ignore that stupid idiotic teacher can liao larh...
always use the same stupid method to scare us...
reli idiotic de lorh!!buey tahan her brainlessness!!

anyway...today got some happy things oso de...
today i went to sunway ard 9am mah...
den was in de same lift with a red shirt guy...
he asked me:" first or second?"
den i duno y..i juz blank n den blur for 2 seconds...>,<
maybe because his voice larh..dun match his looks lorh...
was very 低沉...i tink i was shocked lorh.....><
so embarassing sia...den i tell him i going 1st floor lorh...
he oso go 1st floor..den he walked behind me...
he was very gentleman lorh...
when de lift reached 1st floor...he let me out 1st...
unlike de guys in our class..always want to be out fast fast...
haha...den my 1st impression of him was quite nice de lorh...
den..i went to lab n switched on computer..wanted to do MS homework..
den luke told me emmanuel got de answer..so i go downstairs n find emma lorh..
saw him in de in front class..he looked at me while i watched inside..
was shy by den..so i quickly go out..n go downstairs..haha..
saw him quite many times today...all by chance...^^
gigi got her 有緣人..i oso got le...^^
anyway...sms-ed zell afterwards..asked him abt the guy..
den he said..i will dislike him like mad if i reli know him...
it sounds like he is an awful guy lorh...>,<
nevertheless..juz tink he is gentleman lorh..nothing else..^^

that's all for my "diary"~
sore throat le...fever stil got abit...
luckily no stomachache le...
muz get well soon oh~!^^