ermm...
now is alr 7th of October...
12am in de midnight...
not sleepy at all...
juz wanna stare at the computer n do nth...
duno y suddenly got no mood...
now oni i realize...
loneliness is reli dreadful..
alone in de room...
stare at de monitor screen...
tinking of nth..
not even worry abt de exam...


wad had happened to me??
suddenly...
i feel no more warmth...
there is juz coldness around...
juz loneliness...
n of coz...
me...


hw dreadful is this feeling?
i can't reli tell...
coz it's unimaginable...
it has to be experienced oni u noe hw dreadful it is...
reli...
so...
i juz sit here...
stare at de computer...
doing particularly nth...
with my pendrive...
my Motorola L7 phone...
lying beside the computer...
i suppose both of the items...
are also experiencing loneliness bah...
since i m experiencing it...


haiz...
de world without warmth...
hw did de world bcome like dis?
anyone can bring warmth to my world?
i reli long for a little warmth...
no nid too much..
juz a little will do...
juz enuf to make my heart relive...
at least...
let my heart to carry on...
because it had long stopped its journey...
i duno when it stopped...
juz dat...
it stopped...


so...
hu can make my heart to carry on?
hu will be the one to bring me warmth??
i reli duno...
hopefully...
it wun be long before that ppl appear..
bcoz i m freezing...


a world without warmth...
alone in dis kind of world...
is truly freezing...


but...
wad else can i do?
i can juz hold on...
n wait for someone to rescue me...
becoz...
i dun even noe hw to rescue myself...
juz noe dat...
alittle warmth will do...


duno when dis i become like dis...
so pessimistic...
tink negatively...
dun look like de 'evelyn' other ppl noe...
but...


deeply inside...
i m pessimistic...
juz dat...
i dun like to expose dat side of me...
i tink dat is a kind of defeat...
like admitting i m weak...


i m not weak...
i can be tough...
so i muz hold on...
until there is someone to lend me his hand...
although maybe there wun b anyone...
i shud be optimistic...


god maybe unfair...
but god will be fair at times...
maybe i m not perfect...
but god had certainly gave me something...
dat i duno i possess...


hence...
left it undiscovered...
wait to be discovered...
n be appreciated by someone that can bring me warmth mayb...


i tink it's time for me to go back to my room n lie down...
o else...
ms.irene will be dissapointed...
even if i din study...
i tink i can do de theory questions well de...
so...
dun worry...
juz wait for the better tomorrow to come...


~*~ignore those pessimistic words...~*~
~*~juz casual remarks...~*~