today de yunyun...
no mood n no health...
morning 9am only reach schl...
i m going to be de late queen le...
coz went eat breakfast with mummy...
so a bit late lorh...
den teacher n emmanuel ask me y no takeaway for them...
lol..duno i shud laugh onot lorh..>,<
headache + abit flu...
shud be all right after a rest...
but i got no mood to rest at all...
my brain is full of thoughts...
hw m i going to rest with my brain so full?
haiz...
one ppl addicted to playing games...
so no sms me le...
duno wad his brain for...
waste so much money in cyber cafe...
will it help his future??
he used to be full of ambitions...
said he will self-control...
den look wad is de reality now!!
even tell me dat he is not purposely one...
but if u r firm abt ur stand...
ppl cannot influence u de lorh...
it's juz dat u wish to be influenced...
so i got nth to say...
dat is ur life...n i want nth to do with it...
since u dun treat me as a fren...
den another one...
recently very cold towards me...
duno whr i did wrong or i offended him lorh...
said "hi" to him in msn...he no reply...
sms to him...never reply oso...
only when i tok abt wad he is interested in only he reply...
suan le larh...this kind of fren...
dun wan oso no regrets de...
so...juz let it be...
if he wants to be like dis forever...
i duno y shud i go n patch things up when i did nth wrong...
as for de game-addicted ppl...
already advised him le...he dun wan heed my advice...
i can do nth..i already did my best...
so..the conclusion~
let nature takes its course bah...
everything is fated...
if we r supposed to be like dis...dat only means...
we have no fate to be frenz bah...

sad but can do nth about it...juz wanna be alone n calm down...
not agitated nor any other angry emotions...
juz feel depressed...wonder wad else can i do..
but..i tink it will be better if i do nth at all...
so..maybe i will lose 2 frenz bah..

anyway...today come home earlier...
3:23 pm reach home..
walked home from bus stop in rain...
but lazy bath..if i had to be sick..den sick bah...
actually shud not come home earlier de...
i will tink more when i m alone...
but no choice..dun wan stay at schl oso...
coz will see those 2 "changed" frenz..
dun wan to see them if i can...
will only make me pek cek...

are princesses better than d other girls?
it's juz dat u never put in effort to discover de good points of other girls..
maybe princesses are really better...
but at most of the times...
being ordinary is fine too...
but..attention are always given to princesses...
wad about those girls around?
they will always be left unnoticed...
until the day they leave this world...
gems are just worthless stones before they are discovered n processed...
an ordinary girl can become special if someone is willing to discover her too...
but...hu is willing to put in de effort?
i tink no one bah...
dat is why...good girls are always left unnoticed..
while those wilful n s2p princesses get all the attention...
being ordinary is not my fault...
maybe i m not juz as special as de princess u admire...
so..juz stop here bah..
everything will return to de starting point when there was nth at all...
time will heal everything...
time will make everything fine...
juz let the time passes...
n u will know eventually...
dat princesses are really the worst kind of girls...

sorry for moody n emo words...
but i need to vent it out...
or else maybe i will get chest pain again...
although it really pain now...
anyway...
my final conclusion is:

"everything is volatile..
nothing can be trusted..
so dun trust anything if u are afraid to be hurt.."